Monday, October 29, 2012

It's more than what I can imagine...


A lot of times in my life I find myself so anxious.  Anxiety that comes from my own mind thinking just anything that happens to me.  What happened to me? why have I done something? why have I said those words, just anything....

Or sometimes, I find myself wanting to understand what’s going on in my life? Why these things are happening? what are the reasons that things don’t go the way I want them to.  Why? I’ve done anything I could do to make things happen the way I want it, but, I wonder it didn’t happen.  There must be something wrong I guess.

I also tend to focus on the future.  I mean, thinking of what’s ahead of me.  What will happen to me in the future if I do this or do that.  Where will I be, what will I do, will I like it? It’s basically unknown yet, but I am trying to comprehend them as much as I can.  But, I always fail.  I always don’t get what I want.  It’s totally different from what I want. 

However, a thought came to my mind.  Why would I insist to understand everything going on in my life and what will go on in my life if God tells in 1 Cor. that His plan for me is incomprehensible, it’s unimaginable. It’s beyond my imagination, beyond your imagination, beyond our limited mind.  It states that no eyes have seen, no ears have heard, no mind can comprehend his best plan for me. 

Poor me, I’ve been trying to manipulate and rule my life for things to happen the way I want it to be but I didn’t recognize that God’s plan for me is more than what I can imagine.  It’s the best ever for me, full of surprises, excitement and happiness.  Why would I try to understand if I will not really be able to understand them all since it’s beyond my feeble mind.  It’s too good to be understood by my own mind or anyone’s simply because, GOD has prepared the best for me.

No space for worry, anxiety and doubt anymore.  He assured me that indeed it will always the best for me.  I just have to learn to surrender and recognize HIS power as my dad.  No Dad ever wants His children be in danger, but always desire for the best.  That's my father in Heaven, He desires the best for me more than what I can imagine. 

The question is, are we living life beyond what we can imagine? Or we are living by what we can see, what we can hear and what we can understand? Are we compromising His best plan for us in replace of our own desires?
May we always be reminded of GOD’s best plan for us that it’s more than what you and I can imagine.