It's more than what I can imagine...

A lot of times in my life I find myself so anxious.  Anxiety that comes from my own mind thinking just anything that happens to me.  What happened to me? why have I done something? why have I said those words, just anything....

Or sometimes, I find myself wanting to understand what’s going on in my life? Why these things are happening? what are the reasons that things don’t go the way I want them to.  Why? I’ve done anything I could do to make things happen the way I want it, but, I wonder it didn’t happen.  There must be something wrong I guess.

I also tend to focus on the future.  I mean, thinking of what’s ahead of me.  What will happen to me in the future if I do this or do that.  Where will I be, what will I do, will I like it? It’s basically unknown yet, but I am trying to comprehend them as much as I can.  But, I always fail.  I always don’t get what I want.  It’s totally different from what I want. 

However, a thought came to my mind.  Why would I insist to understand everything going on in my life and what will go on in my life if God tells in 1 Cor. that His plan for me is incomprehensible, it’s unimaginable. It’s beyond my imagination, beyond your imagination, beyond our limited mind.  It states that no eyes have seen, no ears have heard, no mind can comprehend his best plan for me. 

Poor me, I’ve been trying to manipulate and rule my life for things to happen the way I want it to be but I didn’t recognize that God’s plan for me is more than what I can imagine.  It’s the best ever for me, full of surprises, excitement and happiness.  Why would I try to understand if I will not really be able to understand them all since it’s beyond my feeble mind.  It’s too good to be understood by my own mind or anyone’s simply because, GOD has prepared the best for me.

No space for worry, anxiety and doubt anymore.  He assured me that indeed it will always the best for me.  I just have to learn to surrender and recognize HIS power as my dad.  No Dad ever wants His children be in danger, but always desire for the best.  That's my father in Heaven, He desires the best for me more than what I can imagine. 

The question is, are we living life beyond what we can imagine? Or we are living by what we can see, what we can hear and what we can understand? Are we compromising His best plan for us in replace of our own desires?

May we always be reminded of GOD’s best plan for us that it’s more than what you and I can imagine.

Fulfilled

It's been a tough weekend.  Went to Batangas Church, participated in the Outreach program and in a long run, somehow I messed up.  Too bad, but I am very thankful that GOD helped us to make it possible and meaningful that despite our inabilities to really set a good program and activities, it went well.  It's quite tiring, but I am happy that I was able to minister and be an instrument to that church.  Did some anchoring, hosting and preparations of some activities.

Oh yeah, what really struck me the most was the part of Musical Rendition of Murillo's siblings.  That was really really amazing.  I was really blessed and amazed to witness GOD's love and grace manifested in their family.  To think, they adopted the kid but thinking that in a few weeks they could bring the kid back to the orphanage.  But, they experienced a problem.  Their children doesn't want to let the kid go.  So, they agreed to keep the kid as part of their family.  Amazing story...

One more thing, when he sang the song, "Lead me LORD" it fits to him since I can witness how GOD guided his life to be part of that happy, musically-gifted, loving and GOD fearing family.  GOD indeed guided his life.  The kid's life is truly a living testimony of GOD's love.  That moment made the outreach complete :) Praise be to GOD!!

Last thing, it's inspiring to witness a whole family serving GOD through music.  Love them :)

Career ???

Life is unpredictable indeed.  Want to know what has been happening to me?

Uh-oh, I was amaze when I slowly found out what is ahead of me in terms of my career.  It's now getting clear to me what I think is GOD's leading to me.  I am just quite afraid about it, but I believe GOD has a plan and a purpose for that.  I know that it will really be tiring, practicum coordinating, some sort of teaching, and take note at the same time, continuing my MA education.  Pretty tough huh?

Anyway, as life goes on I am starting to have a lot of realizations.  Indeed, God has plans for me.  The best plan that no mind and no one can ever ever think of.  Honestly, I really don't imagine that I will be into this kind of situation.  At first, I actually don't know how or what may happen to me. I am so afraid.  But now, I slowly realize that God's unfolding plan happens slowly.  There are times that it is painful for me.  That I do not understand what is going on.  I try in as much as I can to understand everything and to happen things the way I want them to be.  But no, God says, "wait, For I know the plans I have for you...." (Jeremiah 29:11)

What a relief!  Thus, I am just simply happy to what is happening to me everyday.  Whether good or bad, am thankful for it.  Because I know, GOD has plan for me.  The best is yet to come. 

Alone

There are always times in my life that I am alone and feels so lonely.  I mean, spending time by myself and doing things on my own.  Most likely I feel it when I spend my weekends not with my friends.  I actually don't know where is this feeling coming from.  But I guess, I am really used to being with people. 

Anyway, what I like to talk about this time is about me, starting my blog.  I am happy to start this blog.  I actually don't know how would I be able to maintain this.  But you know, I love expressing my thoughts and ideas.  I am quite emotional and loves to reflect whatever happens to me.  Maybe later this week or the next, i'll try to share whatever experiences I have.  I actually have one two weeks ago.  It's pretty interesting and I'm excited to post it here.

Oh yeah, today,.I am here in AUP-URC.  Working....working,.but not really working..Probably, sitting, typing, reading and that...haha.  Pretty cool huh?